dead of love

i dont know i cant sleep all i can think of is you know who and i jusst finshed to 3 hours of listening to p!nk music and that still made me quedstion the fact that if i schould crush on this guy or move. since there is noone ever reading my blog i feel i can just wright to this blog as kind of my diary. i feel like im writing to my long loss twin that i never had or my bff that moved far away some one i tell everything to. but i just keep think and think and i dont know. its like all i can do is think about my big Questions. should i stay and crush tell he asks or should i move on and life and forget and just live in life with my friends. cause really they are the only ones i really need. im sitting downstaires in my house me and my older brother are the only ones awake im blogging and he is playing call of duty 5 on his x-box360 so bored but all i can do is think. i wouder if anyone actually reads my blog. it feels like no one casue no one comments so i must go
bye

since i've been gone.

since i've been gone a lot has happened in my life. i am just going to catch you guy up on my last three days of my life. they have been full of drama, sickness, and things im going to look back on and laugh. but it all started three days ago after school when bailey, avery, natalie and i all staied after school to work more on our school projects. earler that day natalie had been trying to confives this guy named jack that i liked him (but i didnt and i dont). so after school he went to track. latter after our teacher left we had to go outside where track was going on and wait tell 5pm when our parents were picking us up. so when i was talking to my other friends in track. bailey and natalie pinned jack againest and wall and confivted him that i want to go out with him and i guess he said yes to going out with me. now i was no where near when this happened so about 10 minutes after i found out and i was like "WHAT" so i guess i went along with it so i could look back and laugh. so bailey, avery and natalie were pushing me trors him but i didnt want to go by the time he had to leave they made me hug him. but the next day i broke up with him then the thing with mitchell started. that day at lunch when again i was not there derlin and avery asked out mitchell for me. now i dont know the whole story so im just saying what i heard. so on with the story. and he said that he didnt belivie them and again about 10 minutes after it happened i found out again so they were all like your going out with mitchell your going out with mitchell and yet again i was like"WHAT" know this was more a shock bacause i do like him. but then he came up to natalie and she asked him if i want to go out with him and he was all like ill tell you at pe. and im not in there pe class with them so after that i just heard stories again like before. so at pe they said that mitchell still didnt belive them and kristen(a kid im my class) call them all liers. but the funny thing is that i do like him. but then that day after lunch i was not feeling well and had the wrost headache. so i was out of it for the rest of the day. but when we got out of our last class of the day i was sitting at one of the tables in the hall resting for a sec and waitiing for bailey, natalie and avery went up to him and asked once more and they said he said yes but i never really knew. but then the next day i was sick and stayed home tall 11:30 which is lunch then at lunch i still was not feeling well so i just wanted everyone to be quiet and leave me alone. but no they coulnt do that so that whole lunch they were trying to drag me and mitchell together and i was mad at them because they couldnt just leave me alone and let me rest. though i did enjoy the attention avery thought i didnt like him and told mitchell that i didnt weant to go out with him though i still kkind of do. but by the end of the day i was feeling better and ended up going over to my friend brittnaays house. but that was my last three days of my crazy, full of drama life. but now i just want to be with my friends and maybe date someone but if not my friends are all i need if they dont drag me into another realtionship i didnt get a say in. bye

just got back

got back from my trip about 2 days ago on sunday. it was really fun. on firday we left at about 10:30. then we got to the hotel around 4pm. after we brought all our things to our room we went right to the swimming pool. one thing that really sucked about the pool was that it was not heated (but was inside) so the water was really cold. then latter that night my mom and i went in to town (in yakima) and went shopping for a while then came back with ice cream for all. on saturday we got ready and left the hotel at about 11am. then we drove to bruean (dont know if i spelled it right) to go see my dad. we got to meant alot of really nice people. when we were there we hung out outside then watched the new serlock homes movie. which was pertty cool. after we left,which was around 4pm, we drove to my uncles house in richland. richland was about a hour from my where my dad was. when we got to his place we played some games and watched the movie I Love You Man. i just love that movie. i played on the computer for awhile. i would have bloged but there was no internet there. but i fell asleep around 12pm. then the next morning we were off to see my dad again but this time before we left we went to freds and barnes and nobles. my brother got this new book about the civil war. but it was one of those civil war for dummies books which i think is pretty dumb. but you know brothers. then when we went to see my dad it was like really hot which really sucked for me cause i thought it was going to windy again but it was not, so i wore a pair of cute black skinny jeans and a long sleve pink top so i was happy i wore flip flops but really. it had to me hot that day. omg. then when we left about 5pm. we had a 4 hour drive back to bellingham but i read like the whole time besides when i slept and ate but besides that i read. then we got home around 9pm. which i thought we would get home latter but i guess we didnt take as many stops as the way there. so that was my trip, which inclued a lot of driving and alot of fun.

fort

me and bailey (if you dont remeber baiiley she is my bff) we are building a fort in my backyard. the fort itself is doing really well but the other other day i started trying to build a hamic but i didnt work at all it cant hold my weight and i cant make it the string not break. i mean im not fat. im really small but i cant make it strong eough. before we went inside yesterday i tried to sit on it and all the strings broke and i fell on to the ground it was pretty funny but i got to fusterated and had to go inside i dont think it will every work untell i get rope ro something. but im going to go eat and clean and pack and make a fort so talk or write or read later.

weekend trip

the weekend is the last brefore going back to school from spring break. me,my mom, my brother, my sister, are going to yakama and richland wa (if you didnt know they are really close together. but now ym twow cozins kyla and madison are coming with us and madison is a pain in my butt. so my mom said i get to sit in the front so i dont have to deal with her and she has to sit with my brother. sucks for him. but he likes her. i wouldnt be able to with stand my self being in a car with her more than5 hours and where we are going is at least 6 hours away so you can kind of feel my pain. but we are going to see my dad and my uncle mike. my dad is in yakima and my unncle is in richmond. so we thought we would see both at the same time. but im kind of sad that spring break is almost over cause it is thursday and we go back monday, i leave from yakima tomarrow morning so i dont think ill be able to blog unless i can cunvice my mom to bring our laptop. see im going to get my own on my birthday which is may 25. but she is very protective of her laptop so i dont think so. but im going to blog like all day today. i just love bloging. i have to go pack for tomarrow but dont worry ill be back.

party planning

i thought i might help people with one of the thing i love to do which is plan partys. so if you are planning yours or someone eles party and need help or ideas i can help. i have been planning my own parties since the age of 8 and my friends,family and my self have loved every single one of them. so if you need help im here. hopefully this starts and it will do me well. and rember i wouldnt charge or even need to know much information. all i need to know is the age of the birthday person the sex and some things they like so just comment on this blog or anyone i talk about this and i will see what i can do.

books you should read

here are some books that im reading now or have already read that are very good.
1.Iraqigirl (has a blog on this website)
2.the lovely bones (great mystery but sad)
3.My life as a furry red monster (about the guy who is elmos voice)
4.The twilight seris (world wide great book)
5.just listen (friendship prombles (fiction))
6.harry potter seris (magic)
these are just some tell me if you read any of these and what you thought about them. i know i loved them.

new fashion trends

one of my hobbies is in fashion so i thought i would share some new trend and styles to try:
TRY Bleached denim:pari with quieter neutral. bleached denim has the star kind of style. try this trend if you want to be more or stay bold. you will deffitley stand out in a crowd.
TRY Khakis: if you are petite the give yourself a cute,curvy look. try rolling them up and paring with a cute heel. this will make you look taller. if you are tall, get a cropped fit to show off your legs then pair with a trendy bag or some bold bangles or earings. if you are curvy get a trouser shape this makes a staight line from hips to your ankles.
that is all for now but ill be back with another fashion report soon.

sleepover

last night my bff bailey slept over again and we had so much fun.over text we played who can stay up the lates and of coures we won. all night we had my cd player playing a cd mix we made together. we played truth or dare and did blind-folded makeovers. blind-folded makeovers are when both of you are blind-folded and have a whole bunch of make-up all over the ground or table(depending on where you do it) but then you just go crazy putting on each others make-up on each other at the same time. when your done you take your blind-folds off and look in the minor. you look so funny. then you usally take pictures. i would post some of them but we took them on my phone and i dont know how to download pictures from my phone to the computer so i cant do that. but we also made pillow cases. where we took old pillow cases and and decoratied them with sickers, markers,paint and what ever art stuff you have. but they turned out really cool. then we watched a little adult swim (family guy mostly.) then we started to plan some of my birthday which is coming up. my really birthday is may 25. but im having my party on may 29th. im going to have a mall picture scargaver hunt. where instead of buying the things on the list you have a list of thing you need to take pictures of in the mall there are also some free things on the list but yeah. i just love planning partys it is one of my many hobbies. what are some of your hobbies? gtg talk latter

my love

i think i have fallen in love. i have been day dreaming about the same guy for about a week and i cant get him out of my head. This guy was in my class last year but not this year. he loves hokey. i dont know what gets me about him. hes just so nice and cute and awesome.last night i had a dream that he was in my class in school and sat by me. than asked me to the movies by the end we had been dating for 2 years and when deadly in love. im guessing you dont want to read all of my love but since no one has commented or seems to be reading my blog why not. but no guy has ever asked me out besides when guys are playing those dumb games when they are dared to ask out someone. i woulder what would happen if some guy ask a dumb girl and she said yes. but back to me. me and this guy were really close last year but i guess we drifed apart when we dont see each other than lunch and you know we dont talk during that. but hopefully he will start to noice me and maybe even ask me out. but if you are reading this im gone stop now cause you probably are bored out of you minds. so if i write about anything that insteaests you or you want me to talk more about than comment plese pretty plese comment. thanks

my challenge

im going to start a challenge somthing i will do for atleast one month or tell i finsh. but the thing is i dont know what to do so i want you to comment and tell me what you want me to do. but tell me something that you want to hear about because im going to write about what happens everyday or so on this blog. So plese read and comment. im very open to ideas.

sping break

This week is spring break baby. im going have so much fun in the sun. well no sun cause i live in washington and there is no sun here. so i guess im going to hang out with my friends inside unless we want to stand outside in the cold. right now my best friend bailey is sleeping over and we are going to have so much fun. tomarrow we are going to go to the mall and libary. one thing to say about me is im a big reader. right now im reading the lovely bones. it is really good. i just got the book yesterday and im already realy far. but back to SPRING BREAK. i have plans to go to richland washington this week cause my uncle lives down there. but im hapy cause he says there is a lot of sun. but for now im going to relax with my friends and just chill it out. got to go we are going to go watch the movie 2012.